November 18, 2012 · 1:00 pm

Blessed.

Rachael Lampa and I are about the same age, yet our roads in life have been quite different. While I was still living the era of braces and junior high drama, she had been selected from a music festival to start a new record. Her “Live for You” album was the first cd I ever owned. Her voice was so captivating that I would play songs like “You Lift Me Up” or “Day of Freedom” and pretend it was me singing. (Yes, I know, not typical of junior high, but in my defense–it was always my dream to sing on stage with a lovely, breath-taking voice). 🙂

My favorite song on the album is her hit, “Blessed,” written by Cindy Morgan and Ginny Owens. Rachael sings with the organ sounding keyboards and the choir. Before you know it, I have tears in my eyes and goosebumps. Everytime.

I thought of this song as I read Psalms 139 the other morning. Here are verses 14, 17-18:

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are Your works; my soul knows it very well.

Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in Your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with You.

God saw before I existed that I would walk this journey of living with NF2. He orchestrates blessings that give me strength to endure and persevere. He blessed me with a loving  and sacrificial family, caring friends, prayer warriors, and kind strangers who all in their own way give me a glimmer of hope on dark days. God did not thrust this on me and walk away. He promised to walk beside me to the end of my days. “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” (1)

With Thanksgiving just a few days away, I am so thankful for all that God has given–even relatively stable health for the past ten years. It is so neat to remember where I was when I first started, and see the journey so far. Pretty special, even if that means that the physical things in life have been taken away. But I am still here. 🙂 “For the worst and all the best, I am blessed.” (2)

Happy Thanksgiving week everyone.

PS. I found this acoustic version of “Blessed”–I hope you enjoy listening to this very special song. The website listed after is the lyrics–(and her name is spelled wrong, LOL).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXjyuNBWujM

http://www.songlyrics.com/rachel-lampa/blessed-lyrics/

References

(1) Joshua 1:9, ESV

(2) Cindy Morgan and Ginny Owens. “Blessed.” From the album, Live For You, by Rachael Lampa. Word Music, 2000.

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November 17, 2012 · 11:17 pm

The Basics.

Hey guys.

Thought you might be interested in my new items that will help me maintain my independence as much as possible. 😀 I explained them in my last blog post, but I thought pictures would better show how they work as they are even a bit new for me. Why don’t we start as if I get up in the morning. I brush my teeth and take a shower.

The soap dispensers hold my shampoo and conditioner. I am trying to finish the bottles of my old ones. When they are done, I will just use the dispensers. They give me quantities of shampoo as if you were getting soap at the sink. 🙂 I have to squirt it a few times. And the handle at the right is what helps me get in and out of the shower. It was also what my arm was drapped around when the blood clot hit. Very sturdy!

I also use eye drops to help the dry eyes. I put this on the bottle today and came in the kitchen saying, “With the sound of thunder and speed of lightning- Look! In the sky! It’s a bird, it’s a plane, it’s Super-Tears!!!!” Needless to say, I think even Superman would have approved. 🙂 Because I don’t have the finger muscles to push the bottle, the clippers do it for me:

The rest of these things are random for when I need them. Such as when my back has the tense, sharp pain feeling–I heat up the rice jacket. It is flopsy (word?) but very comforting!

I might also need to cut open things in the kitchen, such as the bag in the cereal box or the covers to my tea. I also like to use paper to make special cards. Using real scissors gets difficult. It is not so much closing the blades part as it is having the thumb strength to reopen them. So, we got these new scissors that bounce back for you. All I need to do is practice, because I can’t cut in a straight line anymore. This might also be from not having the grip in the left hand to hold the paper still, but nonetheless, these scissors are great!

I decided that although I do not need this device right now, it is good to practice on. There might be a day when big pens just might not be what I need when writing. So, we found this neat device that makes your hand sturdy. It is hard, because I have always set my pens against my ring finger, and this device does not. Old habits are so hard to die. I hope to practice with it here and there to get used to it. I want to be able to at least do my signature the same with it. 🙂 That is my goal for now.

I have not had to use this YET, but it will probably be used very frequently: say hello to my new gas tank opener. 😀

This will look so much more appropriate than a pair of pliers. 😀 And lastly, what I love the most–to eat. These new silverware are fantastic! The bigger rubber handle allows me to grip the utensil like before but without hurting my hand. I have also noticed they are not ones for proper etiquette. At dinner tonight, the already used knife resting at the top of my plate kept falling off. Hmmm, I have to practice different ways to place them.

Of course the knife looks good resting on the plate in this picture (below), but that is because it was not loaded with gravy. 😉

We made our order from The Wright Stuff. Here is their website if any of you are interested for more information: www.WrightStuff.biz

What do you think? Any favorites? 🙂 I am adjusting well to these and really, they are for the better. I am not the first, nor the last to use resources like these. I am so thankful they are available for my use and independence. Now, if we can just work on the compression stocking part–I think that would just about cover all my problems. 🙂 Night everyone.

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November 13, 2012 · 1:00 pm

Update!!

Hello everyone.

I would like to take a few minutes to update you on my health. My last MRI and appointments brought up a few questions that my doctor felt needed to be address further by a few specialists: 1) the pain in my right hand due to the tumors growing in the palm on the pinky finger side and 2) my vision as I was (had been at that time) seeing colors frequently during the day. Of course we all see colors, but this was like going from being outdoors in the snow on a sunny day with no sunglasses on to going indoors–that funny green color when your eyes are trying to adjust back to the dimmer light. That is the best I could explain it, but they knew what I was talking about. So appointments were set on November 1st to see a doctor on the Pain Management team (for my hands) and a neuro ophthalmologist about my eyes.

The doctor concerning the pain was very nice. He reminded me of Mister Rogers. 🙂 He listened to all my pain problems and the conclusion came to that there is not much that can be done about the tumors in the hand, except keeping the pain down so that way I can still use my hand as normally as possible without cringing in fear of huge pain every time I go to open a door or pull out a chair or squeeze my shampoo bottles. I have already been on a pain medicine for a while now to help with the pain spasms, but I was given another prescription for a different pain medicine to help with these new different pains. The plan is to see how well this new medicine works on helping my pain (I mean it won’t all go away, but if it keeps it down so I can function that is good) and see how tired it makes me (I also don’t want to be a walking zombie. Been there before, not fun!) Next time I have doctor appointments, if I am not satisfied then there are two other pain medicines to try. So that is all very hopeful. 🙂

At my eye appointment, there were several things that we discussed. For one, my eyes were extremely dry and scratched. So I started eye drops to help with that. 🙂 And two, after they dilated my eyes, they found that my optic nerves were swollen. So, considering my case, the doctor said it is a possible many things, but most important: there is extra fluid in my brain and something is putting pressure on my optic nerves. Then it all gets complicated from there…you don’t know what tumor(s) are pressing on the optic nerve–it could be from the any tumors in the brain or if it could be from the tumor in the spine at the C-3 to C-7 area that is causing pressure and maybe blocking the fluid flow…many different causes. The most important thing was to get the excess fluid out so my optic nerves go back to normal and thus, I stop seeing excess floating colors throughout the day.

I started this medicine that helps soak up the extra fluid in the brain. I already notice a big difference! My eyes are doing much better! I have not seen much color since I started it–only one or two times compared to seeing it everyday all day long like before. The main side affects of this medicine is that it would effect the way carbonated drinks taste…they would taste more metallic. I totally forgot that at lunch last week and pulled out a Cherry 7Up to go with my lunch. I took a sip and about spit it out. I was like “Ugh this is so nasty! Tastes like metal!!!” LOL. I had to throw it down the sink and drank chocolate milk instead. Not drinking any carbonated drinks for a while is not that bad for my diet anyway, so no harm done. 🙂 I go back December 5th for an eye check-up.

And lastly, something that has come up that I have not discussed fully yet with doctors, but I am having much tenseness and pain in my neck and shoulder areas of my back. I think it is due to the extra pressure on the spine from the tumor that had more fluid shown in the last MRI. The new pain medicine has been helping relieve some of that pain. I have to watch my posture as I have been bending more like a person with osteoporosis with my neck strained out as standing up straight causes pain. My parents and I sat down and got a few things from different websites to help with different issues I am struggling with in maintaining independence. All these things are for people who live with chronic pain and weakness. Mom found a rice pad jacket, and it has been so helpful. All I had before was a little 4×6 size pad that I used. The jacket helps release some pain and tenseness in my shoulders. It is comforting. We found some silverware to help me for when I have to cut things, as gripping silverware now really hurts my right hand. Dad helped me find soap dispensers that I can use for my shampoo/conditioner when I shower. We found a device that helps me open my gas tank (right now I use a pair of pliers), a device to help me squeeze my eye drop bottle so I can put my own eye drops in, and I found big pens to write with at the Dollar Tree. All these things out there and available to help maintain independence and I never realized it.

I told my mom the other morning that I felt this time with these changes in my body, we did something about it. Not like we didn’t before, but this time, we took action to find ways to help get around the obstacles. And it was exciting. 🙂 And just the thought to know that I am not alone in this. I may be one of few that has NF2 but there are so many different factors and diseases that lead to the same side effects or weaknesses. Someone has been down this road before me, because these things are available for my use. That is such a blessing. My ten years are coming up in just a few days–ten years ago when I first found out the news that I had NF2. And I thought I was going to die. Now I see, God has only made me so much stronger by His strength. I really can’t explain what I am feeling right now about it–I’ll let you know in a few days. 🙂

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November 12, 2012 · 7:30 pm

Reminisce

Today, I met a wonderful lady. She and Mom know each other, but today was my first day meeting her. She was so full of life and wisdom. What was probably only meant to be a small business chat, ended up with cups of Egg Nog, my peppermint tea and hours of talking, encouraging and sharing Scripture. She showed me the fullness of God’s mercy, goodness and grace. I sat in my spot on the sofa and felt blown away, like marveled, at her testimony. I knew God sent her today. For me.

Yesterday I got in a little quarrel with my sister. She left to go back to school and I was just about to eat lunch. I was so upset at myself, I just went to my room and cried. I ended up falling asleep until the afternoon. But before I fell asleep, I told God that I can’t do this anymore. I don’t know what I am doing in life; I have no friends here my age, no job, no passion and most of all, I knew I was lacking in my walk with God. How could I face the mountains without Him? Just so much has happened over the past week or so, and I felt like I am in a flood. Just drowned in self-pity, pain and confusion.

God showed me again today…no matter how low the valley gets, there is always hope, because He is with me. He loves me and wants to teach me about His goodness, mercy and grace during my trials. I just was a loss for words today as she shared her story. Unthinkable things, circumstances and choices in her life. Yet, here she is saying, “Your will, not mine,” and truly has the God-given passion for reaching out to the hurting and the lost. God taught me so much in just a few hours, I felt like I was taking a college class. 🙂 What an amazing day!

Today was a cloudy and rainy day, but I felt rays of sunshine in my soul.

Though the fig tree should not blossom,
nor fruit be on the vines,
the produce of the olive fail
and the fields yield no food,
the flock be cut off from the fold
and there be no herd in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
God, the Lord, is my strength;
he makes my feet like the deer’s;
he makes me tread on my high places.

Habakkuk 3: 17-19

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October 27, 2012 · 6:30 pm

KY Horses.

Hi guys! I thought I would clump all our horse experiences into one post. I also updated the Downtown Lexington, KY post with the pictures.

We saw three main attractions: Old Friends, Kentucky Horse Park, and Keeneland (a race park).

Old Friends, in Georgetown, started as a means to provide care and a home for those Thoroughbred racehorses who are classified as retired (but I like to add– retired racehorse champions.) 🙂 We saw a few of these legend horses and heard all about their past victories and what led them to Old Friends. They were very friendly horses and enjoyed their share of carrots while we listened to the guide. You can read all about the different horses and their stories at their website. (Also note: Their facilities were part of the Seabiscuit extras filming and one of the horses–Popcorn Deelites–was one of the eight horses used as Seabiscuit in the movie). 🙂 http://www.oldfriendsequine.org/

Popcorn Deelites is on the left.

Friday after visiting Old Friends, we went to the Kentucky Horse Park and saw just about everything from equestrian competitions in the distance, to a presentation of world horses, other retired champion horses, the Budweiser team horses getting their baths for being presented at Keeneland races the next day, and the museum all devoted to horse history (very neat to see!) Here is the website: http://kyhorsepark.com/

This horse theme was my favorite. 🙂

On our way out, our last stop was to see Man O’ War’s statue. He is actually buried beneath. On the walk there, they had a bunch of different facts about who his offspring were and what races they won. They also had this sign that said that Man O’ War’s stride was 28ft!!!! It took ten of my strides to make his one. Crazy!!

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We also got to Keeneland: Thoroughbred Racing and Sales. They were having a strand of races from October 5th until today. When we first walked in, it was a zoo and we were very under dressed for the occasion (but I did bring my big white hat). 🙂 Have you ever seen Dreamer? The movie was filmed at Keeneland. When you walk it, you recognize it. They have this open area with circle fences and right before a race, the horses are brought out and shown to the people then the jockeys get on and get set out towards the track. We walked in the entrance to the race building right when everyone was putting in their bids at the cash office part and it was so crowded we hardly made it out to see the race. We somehow managed to get to an area where we were right next to the fence so we could see pretty good once we claimed our spot. We also were right in the back of all the horse winner’s pictures as the horses would come and go right at the spot where we were. It was neat to watch all the different aspects of the race…very complicated process again. I felt like I was in a different world! 🙂

During a little intermission presentation, we saw (a) the Budweiser horse team (and Dalmatians) that we had seen the previous day at the KY Horse Park, and (b) a presentation for the disabled jockey foundation. Later when my sister looked on the website that night, we are in the picture. 😀 See if you can spot us…I have my hat on!

http://www.keeneland.com/sites/default/files/shared/6448/PDJFpresentationKLD61.jpg

I am glad to report there were no accidents during the race! 🙂 It was a fun time seeing this sport, as I really went into the weekend not knowing much about horses except being thrown off one by our pony when I was eight. I guess that is why these majestic creatures intimidate me, but they were amazing to watch!

This guy had a cool job: He blew the horn as the horses were about to come on the track.

And their off!!

“Happy Trails to you, until we meet again!!!!” ~Roy Rogers

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October 25, 2012 · 10:24 pm

MRI and results.

I normally don’t write about my MRI experiences, because well…it is sort of a boring subject. But I thought since I have them frequently, I would share the experience. MRI’s for me were not a very bad experience when I first started them. You see, I used to watch movies in my MRI. Made a very fun three hours in the machine. My favorites to watch were Star Wars (a little obvious I am sure); and when I needed humor I watched the first of the Ice Age series or Toy Story. Of course I had to try not to laugh–which causes me to move (a no-no)…so I mostly stuck to Star Wars. 🙂 When I got to college, my MRI’s usually took place on my busiest weeks of the semester or a few times immediately right after finals week…so it was my three hours to sleep! I adjusted to listening to music, which usually opted to some sort of oldies cd….or at Christmas, it was definitely Michael W. Smith’s Christmastime. I just love that cd! Anyway, now I just listen to music. After moving to Ohio, my MRI’s were a little different: updated machines meant less time sleeping. Which is actually nice…my MRI on Monday went just a little over an hour…very nice.

Please don’t let me freak you out if you are claustrophobic. I just want my posts to be pure honesty. As I am being set up for an MRI, I lay on a flat table. They give you a pillow for your knees which is my favorite part. Then they proceed to get the headphones on, head-gear on top of that, give me the call button in my hand, blanket on top, strap my arms in like a mummy and into the tube I go. Literally. Now the first time my arms were strapped in, I thought it was weird, but actually I thought it was quite comfortable, because I fall asleep most often in that position at home (on my back with my hands on my stomach). Also, if my arms are by my sides when I fall asleep–they fall off the sliding part of the table and I move them…so having them set in place helps them hold still–which is the whole idea anyway. 🙂 Back to the first time my arms were strapped in, well, I was listening to Michael W. Smith’s Live the Life album. Great songs with upbeat rhythm. So as it gets to the song “Love Me Good”, which is very vibrant in beat–the straps on my arms start vibrating. At first I somewhat panicked, then realized that it was vibrating at the same beat as the bass beat of the song and I just had this sudden urge to tap my foot, BUT I COULDN’T!!! 😦 Sad day. I am still not sure why the straps vibrated.

MRI’s are usually very loud, shaky and they jerk the table around while you are laying there. Once I fall asleep, I usually don’t notice. Also, laying on the table usually starts to give the back of my head a sharp pain. Like my bone on my head sticks out or something. I even tried the past few MRI’s to try to lift my head by my neck just a tad to release the pressure off my head. Kids–don’t ever try this! It did not work, but it was worth the try and strengthened my chin muscles in the mean time.

After all this intro, I must say that this past Monday MRI was the best one I have ever had. I tried once to calculate an estimate of how many I have had and it is difficult. Let’s just say after ten years of MRI’s–this one was the tops. I think (but can’t credit with sources), but I think they must have updated their machines. It was so quiet that I could hear ALL my music and I was listening to a quiet cd = Maire Brennan in fact. 🙂 [St. Patrick’s Day] There was no buzzing on my arms and the only jerking that happened was from me during my deep sleep…totally catching up on sleep from the KY trip (miles of walking). 🙂 It was so pleasant. And that my friends is my MRI experience.

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Today, we went to Cincinnati Children’s for my doctor appointments. The MRI of my brain showed stable, as did the MRI of the spine–except for more fluid in the tumor that is set in the spinal cord from the C3-C7 area. We discussed our options but the plan as of today is to not start any treatments and see how I progress over the next few months before my next MRI. I am to see a neuro-ophthalmologist about a few vision concerns and a pain management team to discuss my pain levels. If all goes well, I might be seeing them both next Thursday, but I will keep you posted. They got me up to date on my medicines as my Vitamin D was extremely low, as was my thyroid level a few weeks ago too. I also start a new small pain medicine to take as needed for extreme pain.

Most of my extreme pain is in my right hand as it has two tumors (the most probable thing) that are resting on the pinky side of my palm. The smaller of the two especially is painful when I grip things or accidentally hit my hand on a table or something. I do not see much significance in changes to function. Both hands seem to act the same in weakness but I would venture to say that I see my left hand doing a few more things (opening water bottles, carrying books) than my right hand just due to hitting those spots and pain.

And that was today. It was a relatively short and good trip. Thank you all for your prayers and support.

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October 24, 2012 · 11:59 pm

Downtown Lextington, KY.

Our trip to KY inspired me to get back reading in the subject none other than history! 😀 I never realized that Kentucky was so historical. Take Lexington for example. Lexington was named after the first American Revolution battle: Lexington and Concord in Massachusetts. I read that soldiers were camped out in the area (of KY) and heard the news of the start of the battle, and so decided to name their camp “Lexington” in honor of the battle. History did not stop there, but why bore you with facts? I will just tell you stories of what we saw and experienced in four days.

The first night we got to Lexington, we went to a place called Victorian Square. It was built in the 1880’s. It now hosts a variety of shops and dining all under one roof. A very spectacular way to preserve the old buildings and history there.

We walked to the Convention Center, which is right behind Triangle Park. The waterfall there is very unique! It runs from April until the temperatures freeze. It was a freezing night as we walked all around downtown Lexington but I’m glad it was not “freezing” freezing temperature. 😉

We then ventured to Thoroughbred Park to see the sculptures of “legendary” horses and historical markers of the people behind the legend horses. I was sort of shocked to see Bing Crosby on one land marker. Very interesting. Most names I did not recognize but a few I did…same with the horses. There are so many names of when speaking of the horses, but a few you hear over and over such as Lexington (the horse), Seabiscuit, Secretariat, and of course, the legend–Man 0′ War. The Thoroughbred Park was just the first hint of my realization of how complicated and fascinating the breeding and training process of race horses really is!!! I think I found a new area of interest to study this winter. 🙂

As we walked back to the main section of Lexington–by this time my feet were freezing and my hands were so cold they could hardly move–we passed by the First National Bank, which I read was the highest building from Cincinnati to Atlanta during the year of 1914. It was/is 14 stories high. Now seeing a 14 story building against the 5/3 bank right behind…seems a little tiny. 🙂 We also stopped in at the public library–VERY COOL!!!!!!!! 😀

(Inside the library)

We finally made our way back to the Victorian Square area and ate at a cafe/restaurant called “Shakespeare & Co.” Very lively, quaint decor and seating and excellent food/service. We ate out on the patio and they had these lamps that heated the area. I was freezing when I first sat down, and sweating when I left. 😀

And that was our first few hours in Lexington. 🙂 I am sorry, but my pictures are not cooperating, so I will post what I have, then add pictures when I can get them uploaded. So, I will sign off. My doctor appointments are tomorrow, so I will keep you posted on the MRI results.

[Uploaded pictures October 26, 2012]

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October 22, 2012 · 2:10 pm

KY.

Hello! We just got back from a mini vacation for my sister’s Fall Break. We ventured to the land of bluegrass, horses and fall color beauty, yep…we went to Kentucky! We spent our four-day weekend in the area of Lexington, Georgetown and Frankfurt–lots of horses and history all around!!

I promise pictures and stories to come, but right now I have to head out for my MRI scheduled at 4pm today. I see doctors in Cincinnati on Thursday. So many more posts coming your way this week. 🙂

Just to ease your curiosity–my new Gravatar picture was taken by my sister at Ashland: The Henry Clay Estate. We enjoyed a tour of his home and grounds. A very fascinating and historical place if you are ever in the Lexington area.

More to come…

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October 15, 2012 · 11:59 pm

God Knows.

One of my favorite singers is Nancy Honeytree. I don’t remember this too well, but the story goes that my parents went to one of her concerts back when I was about 2 years old or so. They put me in the nursery and set out to enjoy the concert. I am not sure if they were told or if it was a mother’s instinct, but when they came back to check on me I had been SCREAMING my head off. They decided to give me a try at the concert and as soon as Honeytree restarted her set, I sat silent enjoying the music. 🙂 It didn’t stop there…I sang her songs in church when I was in kindergarten; I listened to her cassette tapes when I was in elementary school; and my parents gave me her “Every Single Day/Best of Honeytree Classics” CD in high school for my birthday. I must say that it is one of my all-time favorite cd’s, ever!

Honeytree has a song titled, “Diamond in the Rough.” Up until last week, the song has not really come into my head that often and I am not sure why it did come, but I think that was God’s timing. I had just ended three and a half years of work with a company and feeling at loss for what comes next. I take pride in my work and want to do my share for a living, but I never thought that I would just be without a job. It was my choice to leave and it was a hard decision to make…but when the door closes in one area, God can open another. I just have to trust God with that promise.

Don’t give up, no matter what you do…

Your God isn’t through with you;

Someday you will be a polished living stone

Though now you are a diamond in the rough.

I am learning that life is work…whether you get paid for it or whether you volunteer, or how you spend your time otherwise. Friend and family relationships take work. Maintaining a healthy diet and exercise takes work. Learning new things takes work. Loving, forgiving, serving–takes work. My relationship with God takes work. I think I get so caught up in thinking that “work” is only associated with making money that I got upset at the thought of not making anymore. I felt like a quitter…a lazy person…weak (more in the pride), vulnerable and unsure of my abilities.

Don’t give in, not even if you sin;

Just cast all your cares on Him.

Someday you will be a polished living stone

Though now you are a diamond in the rough.

One week out of work and I have been on a roller coaster of trying to manage my time and energy on getting things done counter with relaxing and enjoying my time. I started a few new books and a devotional and felt pretty sure of myself by the weekend. I traveled with my parents to see my Grandparents/aunt and uncle. I got to chat with my aunt during a short drive to and from places. I just sort of rambled about health and being out of work and then honestly said how I was feeling stuck in a few areas of my life, mostly because my relationship with God is distant. I said, “I don’t really know where this is going.” And she said, “God knows.”

Love your neighbor as you love yourself,

But you must learn to love yourself.

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Esteem your brother higher, higher than yourself

But you must first esteem yourself.

I must also work on seeing past my limitations. God sees possibilities. Most of my reasons for leaving work were due to physical limitations. It is hard to see what I can do in sight of another job. It reminds me of when Jesus called his disciples, specifically Peter and Andrew (Matthew 4:18-20). They were fisherman…not scribes, not priests, not anyone of significance and yet God saw possibilities for His kingdom though their lives. They were not perfect and had lots to learn, but God used them. That is the beauty of being a diamond in the rough.

There are times when I am tempted-

To turn off this rugged road I travel on.

There are times when I say, ‘Jesus, can’t you find another girl to sing your song?’

Well, I know that I’m not the only one

Who can sing this melody.

But He’s chosen me to bless me

And to bring me into what is best for me.*

References:

Honeytree. “Diamond in the Rough.” Melodies in Me. Myrrh Records, 1978.

*Honeytree. “Live for Jesus.” Maranatha Marathon. Myrrh Records, 1979.

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October 4, 2012 · 11:44 pm

Today’s Thousand Words.

“A picture is worth a thousand words.”

More to come…

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