Today, I met a wonderful lady. She and Mom know each other, but today was my first day meeting her. She was so full of life and wisdom. What was probably only meant to be a small business chat, ended up with cups of Egg Nog, my peppermint tea and hours of talking, encouraging and sharing Scripture. She showed me the fullness of God’s mercy, goodness and grace. I sat in my spot on the sofa and felt blown away, like marveled, at her testimony. I knew God sent her today. For me.
Yesterday I got in a little quarrel with my sister. She left to go back to school and I was just about to eat lunch. I was so upset at myself, I just went to my room and cried. I ended up falling asleep until the afternoon. But before I fell asleep, I told God that I can’t do this anymore. I don’t know what I am doing in life; I have no friends here my age, no job, no passion and most of all, I knew I was lacking in my walk with God. How could I face the mountains without Him? Just so much has happened over the past week or so, and I felt like I am in a flood. Just drowned in self-pity, pain and confusion.
God showed me again today…no matter how low the valley gets, there is always hope, because He is with me. He loves me and wants to teach me about His goodness, mercy and grace during my trials. I just was a loss for words today as she shared her story. Unthinkable things, circumstances and choices in her life. Yet, here she is saying, “Your will, not mine,” and truly has the God-given passion for reaching out to the hurting and the lost. God taught me so much in just a few hours, I felt like I was taking a college class. 🙂 What an amazing day!
Today was a cloudy and rainy day, but I felt rays of sunshine in my soul.
Though the fig tree should not blossom,
nor fruit be on the vines,
the produce of the olive fail
and the fields yield no food,
the flock be cut off from the fold
and there be no herd in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
God, the Lord, is my strength;
he makes my feet like the deer’s;
he makes me tread on my high places.Habakkuk 3: 17-19
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