Two months ago, it was just a mere sentence thought. After trying the doubling of eye medication without success it was discussed as a possibility again. After my MRI, it was decided that the time was best to try–I have no other options.
I knew it was coming. Last week, the hopes was to have the surgery on the right eye this weekend, but that didn’t happen. My left leg still healing and switching from Warfarin (blood thinner pills) to the shots for surgery preparations, it still hadn’t really registered that surgery is coming. Until this morning; Or maybe two nights ago, when important questions started entering my mind; questions I didn’t think to ask at appointments.
I had just been to see my local family doctor earlier that afternoon for pre-surgery check-up procedures. At the end, he asked, “Do you have any worries?” I thought for a second and shook my head in a “No” fashion. Like a blank mind. I don’t worry about my body per say, but the outcome..the effects and details surrounding it. And so I am more thoughtful of how life will be after surgery-depending on the results. It is then, in those thoughts, my mind begins to see the worries of the actual physical portion of the situation.
I was talking to my aunt about this as I made my Starbucks refresher drink in the kitchen today. In telling her that I was seeing the negative, she encouraged me to hold to hope. And that is what I am prying until Monday–to see the hope, like the story of life, knowing whatever the outcome that God still has something special written just for me.
My surgery is set for this Monday, the 8th at 6:30pm. I sign in at 4pm. I will spend the night to be monitored; discharge is anticipated for early Tuesday morning and we might still have my Wound Team appointment (for my left leg) that day, since we are down there only a few blocks from Children’s. It’s no wonder the weeks seem to fly by so quickly. 🙂
I thought I would say a few specific prayer requests:
For peace–that I will continue to hold to hope (and being put to sleep is a fear of mine from a previous bad experience.)
For my family as they are in this with me and take care of me.
And for the surgeons/other medical staff..for wisdom and steady hands.
I won’t be on my blog until I return home; however, I may post updates on the Facebook page. 🙂 More to come…