My Choice

This may seem like a sudden decision (which it is); but it has been long-time coming. It was one of the hardest choices I have yet had to make, but this time it was my choice and that alone makes me feel like an independent person. ย I have decided that for my safety and the safety of others, I am finished driving.

This decision is not a result of just one physical area, but a combination of many since February: increasing numbness in right hand and especially weakness in the thumb, upper arm strength, weakening right ankle, my balance worsening, and overall energy after hoisting my walker in and out of the backseat while running errands. It is not that I am a bad driver–but God used one weekend to show me that I should consider my driving limits before a worst case scenario occurs. If He hadn’t intervened, my body and mind would still be at conflict with each other about this situation. I knew this choice would be coming, yet I wanted to go as long as possible before I had to finalize the word.

Now what? I am not sure. Ten years of driving, owning a car for five. Like my short-lived apartment experience, I have many memories. Many stories of me and my car. I am now just shifting driver seats to what I do best anyway: co-pilot; but it will take time to adjust to the transition.

For everything there is a season, andย a time for every matter under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1, ESV

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13 responses to “My Choice

  1. Wanda Couzens-Smith

    This is not an easy decision. I’m glad that you are comfortable making this decision. I will be praying for you about this transition to co-pilot (most women make excellent co-pilots!!!) and during this transition. Sending many hugs over the miles!!

  2. That was a hard decision, but it is good to know that God was in it. I’m praying that when the time comes for me to make that hard choice I will be as graceful as you have been. Your wisdom is such a joy for others to see. Love you Melinda.

    • mel

      Yes, after this past weekend and hurting my left leg, I wouldn’t be able to drive for a bit anyway. God’s timing was in it I know this for sure.

  3. Ashleigh Pinkerton

    Wow, that’s a tough decision. I’ll be praying that you continue to rest in God’s comfort in this decision, and that the transition goes well. Love you, cousin!!

    • mel

      Thanks dear cousin. ๐Ÿ™‚ So far I am doing well, but then the thought came to mind: “It has only been a week.” haha. One day at a time I guess.

  4. Lois

    I know that was a hard decision for you. May God give you many joyful memories as co-pilot! Hugs.

  5. Kim D

    Very tough decision, but a very mature one. Proud of you.

  6. Megan

    And how have things been going since making this decision? I’m still so proud of you for stepping up and having the courage to make this decision knowing what it meant for you, yet still doing it. XOXO!!! Megs

    • mel

      Well, looking back, the timing of the decision could not have been better (God planned.) So far, it has been going okay–mostly problems so far with just church, as my rides to PPC have been sporadic. I have been going to Grace with the family. Not bad or anything, but they don’t have interpreters, so it an get frustrating. I still need to try out the public transportation offered through the Greene county. Back to bus riding, haha. Otherwise, when I get with friends, they are gracious and just pick me up or hang out here at our place for coffee and snacks. ๐Ÿ™‚

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