Seeing Spring.

First Day of Spring!!

“Who is this cute kid”, you might be asking??? Well, don’t be disappointed, but it is ME!! 😀 Yep, this is me about 5 years of age. Notice my 😎 (red circle glasses). Try not to laugh, but I still have them in a case safely stored in my special box. 🙂 Now, a few things you should know about these red spectacles: they were my first glasses!! Pretty big deal! To keep these on my ears (my ears are tiny!!), the frames around my ears went almost a full circle. I got asked often if I had my ears pierced, because the little gold tip came just around the bottom of my ear for people to see. 🙂 I thought it was a great fashion accessory at the time!! (That or my Grandma’s clip on earrings.) Those cool frames started to break apart around the ears, so until I got my new frames (which were not so cute…they were MEGA frames!!), my Mom put band aides on them to hold them together. Yes, the band aides are still there today!! Imagine someone finding these glasses 50 years from now–they might be antiques…band aids and all!

Without my glasses, everything is blurry. Blurry reminds me of the future. Even Star Wars uses the future as a main part of the plot. In Episode III, Anakin is having visions about Padme, which he interprets that she is dying…so in order to save her, he gave into the Dark Side of the Force because of his fears. Yet it did not save her (in fact he killed her in his anger). Contrast, in Episode V, Luke has visions of his friends in Cloud City. He asked Yoda if they would die. Yoda says, “Hard to see. Always in motion is the future.” Classic line, but also true!

Just like when I take my eyes off Jesus, my vision gets blurry. Hebrews 12:1-2: “Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.” The future never turns out like I imagine–sometimes worse, sometimes better. I had a blurry moment yesterday. I was talking with my Mom and just realized that I am still not where God wants me to be. It is a constant learning process for me and right now I am in a dry spot. It is like green grass trying to grow underneath the dead grass. My plans I have been hoping for since the blood clot are turning out very different from I would have liked…not that it is a bad turnout, just my stubborn heart won’t accept the changes, which God could use for good. My Mom really encouraged me again to keep walking by faith.

There is a song by Nichole Nordeman, called “Every Season.” She sings about how she sees God in all the seasons of the earth. She starts with summer, then fall, winter, then ends in spring. Her lyrics of Spring always give me the goosebumps. Why? Because she twists her lyrics to relate the seasons to her heart. Our hearts have seasons of change. This spring especially, I see that my heart is in a season of change…coming out of winter and into spring.

And everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season’s change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring